San Francisco, you’re a blast.

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What we do for ourselves dies with us. What we do for others and the world, remains and is immortal.
Mason Albert Pike
09:43 am: ambigious



Circus Girls. The most badass girl gang there was.

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No one has ever been in a relationship on the brink of deterioration and come back from the edge saying, “Sex saved us.” No one has ever said, “We were on the verge of breaking up, but we had this mind-blowing sex and it’s fixed everyone else that was wrong with us.” But how many of us have tried?
05:53 pm: ambigious10 notes

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Looks like a typical Thursday morning alien attack to me. #aliensattack (at Downtown Los Angeles)

Looks like a typical Thursday morning alien attack to me. #aliensattack (at Downtown Los Angeles)

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05:29 pm: ambigious

wheels are turning

I started reading a book that had me draw up a “value ladder” to outline what’s important to me in reference to money. It’s amazing how perspective will encourage you to spend your money more wisely once you remember why money is important to you. 

  • Freedom
  • Financial Independence
  • Peace of Mind
  • Better of Self 
  • Connection to Others (travel)
  • Helping Others

The wheels are turning…

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01:38 pm: ambigious

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Gettin’ it this AM! #risengrind #runit #culvercity (at Baldwin Hills Steps)

Gettin’ it this AM! #risengrind #runit #culvercity (at Baldwin Hills Steps)

08:05 am: ambigious

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Monday Night Essentials      (#avocado + #tequila)

Monday Night Essentials (#avocado + #tequila)

08:10 pm: ambigious

The thing about these pieces is that they seem to assume that being alone is somehow worse than waking up every day next to someone who doesn’t excite and challenge you, who doesn’t share your values or your vision for the future, who doesn’t make you want to be the best version of yourself. I get bored easily. Every day I seek out ways to grow and change, to broaden my perspective on the world, to better understand the future, to become more interesting and complex, to be a better version of the person I was yesterday, and I need to be with someone who does the same. I want to marry someone I can build something with, bounce ideas off of, talk to for hours and still not want to sleep for fear of missing out on something going on inside of his head. I love to be alone more than almost anything else and I want to find the one person I could be with all the time and feel equally at peace. I want someone whose brain moves faster than mine and in a million different directions so that I have to get smarter just to fucking keep up. I want someone who plans for the future — not just his own future but for what the world will look like 5, 10, 20 years out. Someone who ravenously devours information, who quietly analyzes everything he takes in but in a way where I can see the wheels turning in his eyes.

And if I don’t meet this person, my backup plan is that I will become her. My backup plan is that I will spend my life with ME, and I will only let in a person who can compete with that scenario.

Kat O’Leary, "On Not Settling" (via meow-sense(via heylabodega)

A million times over, yes. 

(via coffeeslut)

10:09 am: ambigious233 notes

things to do today:

1. make a list of things to sell rather than things to buy.

2. eat more veggies.

3. drink water.

4. sweat.

5. laugh. 

11:46 am: ambigious

balancing planks

I brought him up casually only to find that talking about him suddenly made my body tingle. She curiously asked, “Well, do you love him? What do you love about him?”

There’s never been any doubt in my mind that I’ve been in love with him. I’ve been in love with him for the past two years. At first I wasn’t sure if I was in love with the idea of him - someone who was there for me during my lowest lows or if it was because I really did love who he was and how he made me feel. Sometimes I question what makes me still love him with him being so far away. 

Is it because he’s always been so clear about how he feels about me? Is it because he makes me laugh harder than anyone else? Is it because he continually impresses me with his knowledge of the world and people of all different walks of life? Is it because he understands what it’s like to struggle? It is because he enjoys the good simple things in life that most people overlook? Is it because he has one of the greatest and most charming smiles of anyone I know?

It’s all the things. It’s all those things and more. 

There has always been something standing between us and it’s something that I haven’t felt I’ve wanted to risk losing. How would we ever know if that life could work without that thing standing in the way? How do you explore a love when there’s fear of losing something else? I don’t know if I’ll ever know. I can’t decide which road will leave me less tortured in the end. I think about the Cheryl Strayed quote, 

I’ll never know, and neither will you, of the life you don’t choose. We’ll only know that whatever that sister life was, it was important and beautiful and not ours. It was the ghost ship that didn’t carry us. There’s nothing to do but salute it from the shore.

Will I accept that life will never be mine? Or will I actually jump on that ship and sail away with it? These are the questions haunting me. 

09:50 am: ambigious


(Source: hidinginhoodies, via thatkindofwoman)

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For yourself, for those around you.


For yourself, for those around you.

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